We went to Arkansas for the weekend to camp. It’s a bit of a drive but it was fun! Beautiful scenery perfect for hiking. I’m learning to stress less by just not caring. My boyfriend’s mother asked me to take photos of our trip and I told her they’ll be on my instagram. She recently created an instagram and added people, including his ex girlfriend and her family, but not me. I even sent her a request and she still did not. I told her the photos would be on instagram so that she would add me already. Instead she has my boyfriend send her photos. So I deleted her off of facebook. I am so desperate for her to just like me more than his ex. I am being ridiculous. I do not genuinely crave her attention or approval, just to that she doesn’t like the Old-Model any better! It’s a negativity I am creating for myself from my own jealousy.
I have decided next spring I will be joining the Army ROTC program. It really is ideal. My college tuition and books would be paid for as well as receiving a monthly living allowance. I could afford to work part time and still have money to pay my bills since my car loan will be paid off in February. My job will be an 8 year contract but at least I’ll have a job. How many college graduates do not? Not to mention retiring after just 20 years. My boyfriend have two years even said he’d go with me if I were to be stationed elsewhere. He has a career here as a carpenter and moving would mean losing his pension. If he really did move with me it would be such a sacrifice on his part but would truly show his loyalty and commitment.